|The real me and babe :)|
I am a Woman. A full time mom, and homeschooling teacher. I am a cheerleader and wife to an incredibly loving and determined man who manages a growing business owned by some amazing close friends. I am a daughter and sister to many that hold very dear places in my heart. I am a friend to a few wonderful women who keep me accountable, encourage my very essence and love me to no end. I have a beautiful home, but more importantly an incredible neighbourhood, that is FULL of amazing people. New friendships are blooming and become close not only to Adam and I but also our children.
But in all of that I have grown accustomed to anxiousness and discontentment. PEACE has been far from my heart for a few months. I feel withdrawn and overwhelmed. In my attempt to create changes I have lost my foundations. In attempt to become healthier, I have become anxious and worried about every meal and piece of food that comes through our home. In attempt to become more organized. I have just given into my obsessiveness and become overwhelmed with every piece of dirty clothing, book on the floor or dish in the sink. In attempt to be a good mom and friend, I have lost my sense of self and have become stressed with the way I believe people should see me. The opinions of others have become so forefront in my mind I have lost my confidence. In an attempt to become a positive example of Christ, I have forgotten the reason why I am a Christian and the reason why Jesus Christ is the core of my life.
Why am I being so raw and honest? For one, life can be so discouraging thinking that everyone has it all together all the time. For two, I think in this day and age we get so caught up in the Facebook of life. We forget who we are to become who we think others need us to be. We spend so much time on our outward we forget about our declining inward. We work so hard at being a good mom and wife (fill in the blank) that we forget that it's not the doing that makes us great but the being. We are so busy "doing" Christianity we forget Christ.
So what is my mandate?
#1 To love God with all of my heart and serve Him with all that I have.
-Making the time to spend precious moments with God. Then taking all that I have learned and are still learning and giving it to God to guide me and help me become faithful with what I have at my fingertips.
#2 To love others with reckless abandon.
- Choose to go all out in relationships giving generously with the knowledge that God never leaves me or forsakes me and provides all of my needs.
#3 To Rest
- Life is never too busy to choose time to rest. "Be still and know that I am God" (and if life leaves no time to rest. I need to change my schedule so that I can.)
#4 To be at PEACE
- "Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart." (unknown)