Growing up with three brothers. I always found it a little more difficult to connect with girls. I spent a lot of time on my own, singing, painting and drawing in my room. I found it challenging to keep girl friends and even more challenging to make them. I had a bit of a shy tendency (mostly fear of opening up to others) and brought myself to believe by high school that I really didn't need close girl friends.
As the years went by, I was amazed at the hole I found in my life from not having close relationships and from keeping those that could be close at a handlable distance. So in 2003 through personal choice and encouragement from my husband I started a healing process. I wrote all the names down that I still grieved over hurt feelings from and I prayed over each woman forgiving them and asking God to forgive me for the part that I had taken to disintegrate the relationship. It lifted a massive burden and freed a whole new emotional side of me. But then came the journey of actually making friends.
It has taken a while but being connected to an amazing church and choosing time and time again to be open to those who are in my life has brought a huge revelation of the power of women joining forces and encouraging one another.
It's incredible the connections we can make through out our lives. It has been a journey of ups and downs with girl friends, but now being an adult and looking at the women who surround me I can't help but feel foolish for not allowing myself to get closer to friends earlier. It has been such an eye opening experience allowing some key women into my heart. I believe I have grown more as a woman, learned more about myself and genuinely have found an enhanced joy living out life with the dear relationships that surround me.
My need for healthy relationships with women has been a vital part of my journey becoming who I am.
A good friend of mine has pointed out a couple times in the last couple months how amazing it is that I am writing this blog considering my past. Funny how life can have the tendency of turning around. My calling in life now is driven with a passionate heart to see women develop close uplifting relationships with each other.
Thank you for all the girls that are in my life! You have blessed me beyond words. I cannot imagine this journey without each one of you!!!